We all want to fall in love. Why?
Because that experience makes us feel completely alive,
where every sense is heightened,
and every emotion is magnified.
Our everyday reality is shattered
and we are flung into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon,
but that doesn't diminish its value,
because we are left with memories
that we treasure for the rest of our lives.....
Chapter 6 : We Are The Same'' A alkene is an unsaturated hydrocarbon because it has carbon double bonds... which allows it to have all these reactions ... Kris... what reactions are those? '' Ms Tan, the form teacher of the class questioned suddenly .
'' What... ? Er.... substitution reactions... ? '' Kris replied groggily .
''Kris ! Come here ! This is already the fifth time i have caught you sleeping during class ! Okay class, do question 1 to question 10 now , complete it by the end of the lesson . '' Ms Tan commanded .
Kris steadied himself and walked over to Ms Tan's desk , he had barely had an hour of sleep the day before , it was always the same scenes repeating over and over in his head and making him unable to get some shut-eye .
''Kris , what's wrong with you nowadays... ? Do you know that... Oh , you have come , go back to your seat first. Kris i'll deal with you later . See me after class . ''
Kris dragged his feet back to his seat and slumped down onto his seat and began sleeping again . Somewhere far off Kris could hear his teacher announcing to the class .
'' Okay class, this is our new pupil, she's called Katy , and she will join us for the rest of the year , Katy, would you please give an short introduction of yourself to the class ? ''
Kris felt something hard poking him, it was Nicky .
'' Oioi wake up la, cute girl sia ! ''
Kris pushed Nicky's hand away and continued sleeping .
'' Hello , I'm Katy , and i transferred here from New Town secondary school as my parents wanted to have a change of environment , and my main hobby is swimming ! I hope to know you guys more, please give me your guidance . Thank you ! '' A surprisingly familiar voice rang out .
Kris shrugged it off and carried on sleeping .
'' All right, Katy, why don't you sit beside Kris, over ... Kris ! Wake up and complete question 1 to 10 '' Ms Tan warned in a threatening tone , as though daring Kris to go back to sleep again .
Resigned to fate, Kris lifted his head and looked at Ms Tan, who was at last satisfied when she saw that Kris' eyes were wide open and Kris proceeded to completing the questions as fast as possible, so that he can go back to sleep .
'' Creakkkk ''
Kris wasn't surprised to know that the girl who called herself Katy was moving her tables and chairs away from him .
Kris ignored her actions and was really irritated to have felt something hard poking him again .
It was Nicky .
'' Get off my back Nicky, don't irritate me anymore , I'm tired and I just wanna complete my work as soon as possible ! '' Kris whispered in a loud voice facing his paper so that Ms Tan would not catch him talking .
Kris felt something hard poking him again .
''Stop it la idiot ! ''
Kris felt something hard poking him again .
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'' What?!'' Kris turned and found himself face to face with Katy. Who had a big smile on her face .
'' Hi ! We meet again ! Under the same sky huh... ? ''
Kris was shocked and stunned for a moment.
Katy still had that big smile on her face.
'' Ringggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!''
The bell to signify that lesson had ended and recess had arrived rang.
'' Okay see you Katy . Lunch time ! '' Kris stood up and started towards the door .
'' Hey, wait ! Can you bring me to a secluded place ? I want to talk to you '' Katy immediately replied .
'' What? I want to eat ! T-T '' Kris continued walking towards the door.
'' Hey Kris ! Why don't you go have a chat with Katy, I'll buy you some charsiew bao'' Nicky suddenly cut in .
'' Zzzzz . Fine . Follow me .'' Kris said reluctantly .
Kris lead Katy to the balcony beside the Art Room, which no one visits during recess because it is too far away from the main buildings .
'' Katy, why did ask me to bring you here ? '' Kris questioned .
'' I.... want a honest answer....'' Katy whispered in a shy tone.
'' To ? '' Kris pushed on
'' What do you think... Love is...? ''
''What...? I told you before, I don't know what it is and don't want to know . '' Kris replied in a stolid tone .
'' Lies..... ''
Katy's head was now lowered down and Kris couldn't help but feel that his heart suffered a few more slashes when he saw how Katy responded to his words.
'' What do you think... love is.... ? '' Katy repeated herself .
'' Don't know, don't want to know . '' Kris replied , without any emotions in his voice .
''Kris... be truthful to yourself and me... what do you think love is... ? I am curious as to what is your answer... ''
''SHUT UP ! I DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS ANYMORE, I DON'T WANNA BE HURT AGAIN, I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER HER .NO ! NO ! NO ! I DON'T WANT TO BE HAUNTED BY IMAGES OF HER AGAIN, NO ! I DON'T ! I JUST DON'T !
I LOVED HER SO MUCH..... SO MUCH....SO MUCH..... IT'S BEEN A YEAR, I STILL REMEMBER EVERYTHING SHE HAS SAID AND DONE . EVERYTHING ! I NEVER EVER WANT TO EXPERIENCE THE FEELING OF LOVE AGAIN! IT WOULD JUST BRING ABOUT MORE PAIN !
I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT IT IS ANYMORE..... THAT FEELING... I HAVE NO WISH TO EXPERIENCE IT AGAIN... IT HURTS... IT REALLY HURTS AND SCARS MY HEART.... I FELT THAT I WAS DEAD AT THAT EXACT MOMENT WHEN SHE SAID
I hate you ! ''
Kris couldn't control his tears and was crying uncontrollably, his knees suddenly gave way and he collapsed onto the floor, he didn't know why he suddenly exploded , it was just all the emotions inside him which suddenly rushed out of him, Kris didn't want any of this to happen , and for it to happen in front of Katy....
'' So... we are the same...I understand your pain. ...Why does love have to hurt?...... Why can't one's love be reciprocated? .......Why after all these years? .......Why? The perennial questions..unanswered and unanswerable...unacceptable...
one start with a dream, hoping it will become a reality, but all the time, the warning signs were there that it is only an illusion of love, for one cannot accept the truth, and as such, continue to live in that fantasy....
Until one day, that fantasy cracked like a glass, shattering one's illusions, driving one onto the knees, tears falling easily, finally realizing how foolish one had been and the wasted years...
The pain never goes away...it stays forever...lingering and haunting one...for being a fool in love...and vow to never love again...
'' Katy whispered, ever so softly into Kris' earAmidst Kris' tears, he didn't notice Katy wrapping her arms around her and that she was also sobbing uncontrollably....At that moment, it was as though Kris and Katy's hearts, souls minds and bodies were interlinked and completed as they remain locked in an seemingly eternal embrace ....